Looking at my previous posting: I pick up complaining, and I’m aware I don’t like that. I thought of removing it but I decided not to, as I struggle to get anything on my blog at all. Not because I don’t want to (I tell myself) but I just don’t have the time…
Possibly it’s because I’m older (…as noted: I can not possibly the latest “new young writer” as I’m definitely not young!…) and I had a definite fantasy about what being online meant when I started. I thought being able to email my material–the ideas that meant so much to me, the characters that were alive to me–to the “right” person (usually an actor, producer: at the time I wanted to a screen writer) would mean they ‘d become as enthusiastic as I was about my material, offering me whatever support I needed to get the project off the ground. The email/internet gave me access to that person.
And of course, I quickly discovered that wasn’t true. Other people–famous or not–have their own projects that they’re working on, and they didn’t have the time and energy to focus on mine–even if they were interested. Why would it be any other way?
I did, however, “put out to the universe” ..(if I may use that terminology)… that I really wanted someone who would read my material, come to appreciate it, and give me the support I needed to get it together and “out there”. And lo and behold I did find my writing consultant, Julie Rodriguez over the internet. Julie and I have working together for almost 5 years now (I believe we started in the later part of 2011) and her work with me has been so invaluable that I have discovered the real fantasy that I haboured: the myth of the lone writer who’s simple brilliance draws in the reader.
And that is very definitely a myth.
If I want to put my writing “out there”, I need to put flesh and bones on the characters, put them in concrete situations that speak to others as much as me. That’s hard work…and collaborative work. I can’t assume that what makes sense to me will necessarily make sense to the reader. And if it doesn’t and I go down that path than I’ll be simply writing for myself…which is fine if that’s what I want to do … But if as a storyteller I want to have others read it, I need Julie as sounding board. Without her I would have been able to finish and put of what I have…
…Which reminds me: Coming out soon.. the third novella in the Kooteani Brown series…”Where fantasy ‘gets real’…”
But that’s the topic for another blog…
Just some thoughts